fatfatfat.

i do not know what is wrong with me. seriously. i ate so poorly when i was in mississippi (fast food TWICE, under duress, it was outright depressing) that i promised myself that i would only eat vegetables and tofu when i got home. but for some reason, i have eaten terribly on my first day back home...two kashi waffles with peanut butter and some pasta salad. and a diet coke. the worst part is that i'm still hungry and will probably go get some wheat pita with hummus soon.

i had to eat at the airport last night and got this sandwich that had all of this cheese on it and basically attacked it because i hadn't eaten all day and was burnt out from traveling. i felt disgusting.

i'm really angry with myself. i need to be so thin and beautiful for college (especially when rush starts), and i feel like i've failed miserably in the past few days. i've lost momentum. it feels awful. and i'm so hungry! i can't wait to go back to school so i can go to the gym. i'm an eight right now, and i want to be a four/six. it seems impossible.

i never thought i would be one of those girls who obsessed about her weight to the point that she would get like this about it.